My sleep should be good today, and I can last a long time. Maybe sleeping better is the only thing I can console myself with.
        I was about 0:10 when I suddenly became very depressed and said something negative. In order to save myself, I read "I am not depressed" a hundred times, barely made it through.
This is the first time I've felt this bad. I've never felt this bad before.
I really don't know how much longer this will work.
        Ok, I have to get up. It's 9:39.
        I hope I can last a little longer.